Sand Passed Away

I hate to break the bad news everybody but yesterday at 9 PM the doctors in the hospital decided to pull the plug and she swiftly and peacfully let go.

Although I am really torn about it but I am glad that finally she will be safe and happy cause no one is going to take care of her more than God.

Rest In Peace Sand. May you be happy and Safe wherever you are.

Allah Yer7ameek and Yes3eddek.

C O N T R O L

Why is it that we always want control? Never understood why, is it cause we always want to feel strong or feel we are stronger than someone else? what is it that makes us get off when we see someone powerless and can not defend him or her self. I mean what is so great about control which is by definition is to exercise authoritative or dominating influence over someone.

I never understood the whole concept of BDSM, which is a complex acronym derived from the terms bondage and discipline (B&D, B/D, or BD), dominance and submission (D&S, D/S, or DS), sadism and masochism (S&M, S/M, or SM).BDSM includes a wide spectrum of activities and forms of interpersonal relationships.

What is so great about tying someone you love and care about and see fear and lust in their eyes. I always thought it was degrading but you never know how far can you go to satisfy the person you love and see it in their eyes that you can turn them on and keep them satisfied it gives a sense of fulfillment that you have this effect on them. That they do not only love you but you can satisfy them you can make them moan from pleasurable pain watch it on their face that they want more they do not want you to stop. That at some point among the physical satisfaction you both feel as one and when you pull away they beg you and pull you back asking you not to stop and be there with them continue your unity and continue being there cause this feeling is too good for you to stop they want you to be there and for this feeling to last for good. It is so great to feel that your loved one can not pull away from you and that it cause you physical pain when they are not around..

Amazing how far can you go to feel that, amazing how many rules you can break and how you can hurt yourself for the sake of feeling you make them feel their lust for you and how good you are in satisfying them and that for once in your life you are good enough for someone even if its by being tied up and feeling pain for them to feel satisfied..

Thinking about it now it makes me think was it love? Or was it pure sadism? What is it that they can make you feel pain and yet you do not want them to stop to see this look in their eyes once more..
God, I just do not know..

M I M I C I NG

Can you imagine being empty and out of anything that you take people experiences and events and put it as your own? Can you be that empty and Dull?
What would you do ladies and gentlemen if you woke up one day and found yourself stealing other people's stories and experiences and saying they were yours to get people's attention and concern? Or Simply making up stories about friends and close friends just to have something to say or make yourself feel you have something going on in your life?
What would you do then? Kill yourself for the attention or fake your own death and lurk around the corner watching people forget about you in a second.
Beats the fuck out of me!!